Preparing for triggers

Tommorrow will be a day full of unavoidable triggers. And other stresses too. I am taking my daughter to the back specialist. Upon my insistence, I asked pediatrician for an xray. She has mild scoliosis.

Breathe. It is mild. It may stay mild. 

Because I want the best for her, I am taking her to the same place I went. Recently and as a child. But now we get to go to the pediatric office, the actual same place I went. Even better, better for her, worse for flashback potential, her Dr is the the son of my Dr back then. Same name, same floor. I lost it a few months ago when I had to go to the same building for radiology. 

I have to keep myself grounded and present. My daughter may see a full blown panic attack or flashback for the first time. But I have to be there for her. It would have been better for me to choose a different dr, but not best for her.

So I can do this. Somehow I can do it. I already feel sick, a migraine. Nightmares for days have kept me from resting. I am so tired.

Then other stresses combined as usual to make this week even harder to manage. And yet I must. More later on the other stresses, too much to write now

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8 thoughts on “Preparing for triggers

  1. Have you considered a coloring book for you and your daughter or maybe plan a favorite place to go afterwards? I found that with known triggers if I change up the experience by doing things differently either by entering a different door, taking stairs, a planned activity afterwards can sometimes tip the balance towards keeping myself more grounded than triggered. Keeping you in my thoughts. Hugs.

  2. I hope it all goes smoothly for you. You are so brave and such a good role model for your child. You should be so proud of yourself. I am following you so I can keep up to date with your journey.

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