Not happy today. Overwhelmed. Tired. Anxious. Frustrated. Sad. Sorry. Confused.
Overwhelmed by how many tasks I must manage daily that seem to be solely up to me.
Tired of always waiting on Hubby to be ready to talk or deal with something that is on my mind or needs done.
Anxious from all the activities I must do and ‘try’ to enjoy even though I don’t. (Went to a pro basketball game – Terrible, the crowd, the noise, the smells, jumping out of my skin with each speaker blast, not caring about a ball thrown around, not understanding the people around me with red and blue hair screaming with excitement about a ball, its just a ball, boredom mixed with overstimulation – just terrible)
Frustrated by going round and round with the same conversations/disagreements with Hubby and getting no where.
Sad that he doesn’t seem to have the same goals as me or think that mine are important, realistic, or even worth talking about it.
Sorry that he feels attacked whenever I try to talk to him. I’m not trying to do this and don’t know how to change.
Confused that he thinks I am nasty every time I open my mouth, and yet he loves me anyway. How can he say I am so terrible to him and yet still want me here, but doesn’t want to ever talk about it? I don’t understand.
Not sure this has anything to do with my past or PTSD. I think it is a typical marriage problem.