Casting Pearls – Not everyone will understand or appreciate you

Judy’s (from theprojectbyjudy.wordpress.com ) comment on my previous post really touched me in unexpected ways, and lead me in so many different directions. I’ve spent a week processing this information and I feel much more peaceful today, at least as far as my Mom is concerned. I’m actually struggling to stay balanced overall, in some sort of PTSD flare up or cycle or something, but I don’t feel like talking about that today because I am still in it. Sum up that one by saying I feel like crap underneath all this hope and peace. Some of you will understand that.

Her comment “… No need to apologize for treating your mother the way you wanted to be treated. It says amazing things about you. I’m so sorry she threw away the perfect opportunity to truly change. Instead, she only changed the scenery but stayed on the same stage. You, on the other hand, have chosen to walk of her tiny pitiful stage and created an amazing expansive stage she will never understand and cannot appreciate. Hmmm… not casting your pearls before swine, not because the swine are horrible because frankly I love bacon, but the swine doesn’t appreciate the beauty and value of you. . .”

First I was like, huh? I wasn’t apologizing, I was explaining my anger and disappointment and longing. But then I re-read my words and heard the apology. I was being hard on myself for continually reaching out to my mom, trying to have her in my life, when it often gives me more pain instead of the love, comfort, support, or closeness I was longing to feel. I’m still nit picking my behaviors and apologizing for always screwing up. wow. I didn’t even see that as I wrote it.

The the scenery bit was priceless, because I paint scenery for a children’s theatre group. And the stage is perfect, because we all go center stage when we have a fit. Even better because Narcissists never leave the stage at all. But what happens when the audience doesn’t buy the story any more? Yup – change the scenery. Brighten it up, add some special light and sound effects, add a more interesting back-story, and you’ve got the audience hooked again – and most importantly – focused on you again. I get it. I’ve been on that stage too, I think we all get up there occasionally. Just some people refuse to let the curtain drop.

Now the casting pearls bit is the most interesting, because of where it took me. The phrase was familiar to me, just from being alive and reading. But it seemed more familiar than that. A quick google search brought me to Yngwie Malmsteen’s song with that title. I grew up with my Yngwie and I love him. My brother with schizophrenia either played Yngwie’s music on his stereo, or played something remarkably like it himself on his own guitar. Yes, my brother is that talented. He still plays his guitar for hours on end every day, though he tends to keep the Yngwie style for daytime hours when my mom is at work, and chooses to play ‘pretty’ music when she is home to avoid her complaints. She doesn’t appreciate his talent either and suppresses his style and creativity. I think the music is too complicated for her, and she simply doesn’t understand it. I however, see it as the pearl it is.

I’m including the song here for you to hear, along with the lyrics down below. If this music is not your favorite, that’s fine, but I ask you to take a moment, close your eyes, and isolate the sound of each instrument for a moment. Start with the guitar, then the drums, then the vocals, tuning out the rest. Then allow your mind to put it all back together and see if it isn’t so overwhelming. Oh – you may want to have the volume down when you get started and ease it up, even I jump when it starts!

I included several other Yngwie song lyrics below. If you skim through, you can see that the songs are about non-conformity, doing what is right, self empowerment, recognizing toxicity in relationships, overcoming past pain, inner demons. Fascinating. I started to wonder if my brother loved Yngwie as a teen for the strength it gave him, not just that he liked the sound of the guitar. Yngwie has had many different vocalists and drummers with him through the years. The one here is not my favorite, I prefer Goran Edman, the one I know the best from the 80’s and 90’s. This is a rough song, for sure. Many of his songs are actually pretty ballads, so do yourself a favor and listen to s few songs before deciding this is a “terrible noise’ like my mom calls it. You don’t have to love it, but try to appreciate it. (I’m assuming – and maybe incorrectly – that most of the slightly older than me women that read my blog will not love this music)

Music is a huge part of my life, and a powerful way to change moods and share messages. So who knew that Judy’s reference to a bible verse would lead me down a nostalgic road to a heavy metal band that is special to me and my brother. Cool.

I’m not sure my brother owns any of Yngwie’s latest albums, I didn’t even know he was still making them – I think I know what to get him for Christmas now. 🙂

The seconds are ticking and time’s slowly slipping away, yeah
The stakes getting higher, fight fire with fire again

[Chorus:]
Casting pearls before the swine
I know it’s wrong, it’s out of line
I would rather die than follow you
Yeah, I’d rather die

Try to poison my mind, had enough of your kind
You’re all blind
So little you know, ’bout my heart and my soul and my pride
Get a life!

[Chorus]

Yeah, I’d rather die
You’re all blind, yeah

Read more: Yngwie Malmsteen – Casting Pearls Before The Swine Lyrics | MetroLyrics

http://www.darklyrics.com/lyrics/yngwiemalmsteen/facingtheanimal.html

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YNGWIE MALMSTEEN LYRICS

1. Braveheart

Closing my mouth
before I scream
No-one cane shake
my self-esteem

Whisper my name
confuse my mind
To me it’s the same
if I’ll survive

This game you can’t win
Who is free from sin
I won’t be afraid
My soul will remain

Go on and sleep
the sleep of the just
If your conscience is clean
do what you must

One day you will know
I was a friend, not foe
I won’t be afraid
My soul will remain
Let go of your hate
I won’t be afraid

I won’r be afraid
My soul will remain
let go of your hate
I won’t be afraid, oh no…

2. Facing The Animal

Sinking my teeth
into you
Sweet obscenity
You’re in too deep
for your own good
I’m commanding thee
Succumb to me
set me free

Facing the animal
Walking the higher ground
Lost in a ritual
I close your eyes
and kiss you twice

Facing the animal

The scent of your skin
Overpowers me
there is no remedy
It comes from within
the divinity
I just can’t resist
Must admit
I’m losing it

Facing the animal

3. Enemy

What an enemy
You became to me
Lived a fantasy
An illusion

Built scenery
Played to the gallery
like so many we
Never could agree

All the pain that I
Had to hide inside
Made me realize
I was starved

Tried so hard to be
Anyone but me
Everyone could see
So, I’ve opened my eyes

I’m no longer waiting for a miracle
Hold my head up high, the future’s
now

Though I was colorblind
I read the warning signs
And put the past behind
Down the gutter

Now I finally see
That the enemy
is both in you and me
Yeah, I’ve opened my eyes

I’m no longer waiting for a miracle
Hold my head up high, the future’s
now
No use in waiting for a miracle
Hold my head up high, my future’s
now

4. Sacrifice

How many times must I tell you
I will not pretend
Will it ever end
Guess there’s a need to condenm
What I defend

Say what you will
In for the kill
I’ll stand my ground
At any sacrifice

Tearing my heart out
And serve it to you on a plate
Bitter to the taste
One bite is all you can take
the rest’s thrown away

Left on my own
Cold as a stone
No matter what you imply
I’ll survive at any sacrifice

I’m walking a wasteland
Where beauty and truth can’t be seen
A never ending game
The world keeps on turning but I
will stay the same

5. Like An Angel

I’ve been searching for you
for so long
My life’s been sacrificed
I’ve been longing for truth
And now I have found
all that in you

Like an angel you came to me
And now I see
The stranger in me is finally free
To fel true love

From heaven I knew you were born
on the wings of love
you were brought to me
I’ve been longing for truth
journeyed so far
to be with you

Like an angel you came to me
And now I see
The stranger in me is finally free
To fel true love

6. My Resurrection

I’m back to life
from the walking dead
no more demons in my head

I’m sick of uglly lies
Leave this bal and chain<
as the hatred dies, so does pain

My soul is free
I’ve got wind beneath my wings
Yesterday’s gone
My heart sings

Time to believe
In the better part of me
Tomorrow is here
Awaiting

My resurrection
My resurrection

One chain don’t make no prison
Two wrongs don’t make a right
I have never felt so alive

7. Another Time

Feeling restless
Crave for company
never gave me
Any room to breathe

Intuition
Soon made me wise
As you ran out of
Alibis

Took time to draw the line
That I can’t deny
Nothing is plain or black and white
You fight like a tired soldier
Shielded by wounded pride
Always pretending to be strong
Desperately waiting for

Another time, another place
I don’t care no more
I am the one you can’t replace
A fact you can’t ignore

Can you face it
I’m forever gone
Dug your own grave
Shot with your own gun

8. Heathens From The North

Dress in armour
bring your sword and shield
and your lucky charm
In dragonships
we’ll sail the seven seas
under guiding stars

Into battle – we will ride
Gods will follow – by our side

Heathens from the north
Heathens from the north

The air is still, the
bodies cold and pale
they’ll never live to tell
About the slaughter
when battleground ran red
we gave them hell

Into battle – sense of pride
We’re forever – shining bright

Heathens from the north
Heathens from the north

Heathens from the north
Heathens from the north
We are immortal
ever shining bright
Heathens from the north, yeah

9. Alone In Paradise

All of my life
Needed a reason
to find out who I am

I’ve had my share
Acts of treason
Slipping right through my hands
What am I waiting for…

Sometimes I feel
Like I live in a dream
Alone in my Paradise Lost

Can it be real
Tell me what does this mean
Alone in my Paradise Lost

So many years
Is there an answer?
In this castle made of sand

As time passes by
I’m running out of chances
Who will understand
What I am waiting for…

10. End Of My Rope

Don’t make a move
Don’t amke a sound
I’ve got my eyes trained on you
The target is found

You waited too long
I’d rather stand on my own
Ain’t no more blanks left to fill
In my list of sins
I’m at the end of my rope

The louder you speak
The less I hear
I gotta let off some steam
and driven by fear

Tell me I’m wrong
’cause this can’t go on
I’d rather stand on my own
Ain’t no more blanks left to fill
In my list of sins
I’m at the end of my rope

Leave me alone
This can’t go on
Not anymore, no

You waited too long
Listen and soon you”l be gone
Tell me I’m wrong
‘acause this can’t go on

11. Only The Strong

Ask yourself where you’re
hearding for
Deviate – no need
to conform

All it takes is some
confidence
Seize the day, it might not
come again

Only the strong will survive
Stand tall and never die
Come out from where you hide
No need you swallow your pride

Only the strong will survive
get up and reach for the sky
Don’t wait for no-one and
Don’t let your heart be denied

Face the truth and
control your fate
Set the pace
never hesitate

All that scares you and
makes you doubt
Break the silence, just
spit it out

12. Poison In Your Veins

I paint a smile on you
’cause you want me to
then I unmask you
laughing in your face

If you had half a mind
I wouldn’t even try
But you’re so naive
just can’t let you be

Make me glorious
and victorious
I’m superior

Time to pay the price
Throw off my disguise
Poison in your veins
So easily deceived
The lie that you believe
Poison in your veins

You follow my advice
and feed my appetite
WWhat you leave behind
I will claim as mine

In the end you’ll see
what you’re meant to be
Something obsolete
mission is complete

Call me disgrace
To the human race
I don’t give a damn

Time to pay the price
Throw off my disguise
Poison in your veins
So easily deceived
The lie that you believe
Poison in your veins

13. Air On A Theme

[Instrumental]

14. Casting Pearls Before The Swine

[Japanese bonus track]

The seconds are ticking and time’s slowly slipping away, yeah
Th stakes getting higher, fight fire with fire again

[Chorus:]
Casting pearls before the swine
I know it’s wrong, it’s out of line
I would rather die than follow you
Yeah, I’d rather die

Try to poison my mind, had enough of your kind
You’re all blind
So little you know, ’bout my heart and my soul and my pride
Get a life!

[Chorus]

Yeah, I’d rather die
You’re all blind, yeah

Yngwie Malmsteen – All electric and acoustic guitars, bass, vocals
Barry Sparks – Bass
Mats Leven – Vocals
Mats Olausson – Keyboards
Cozy Powell – Drums

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6 thoughts on “Casting Pearls – Not everyone will understand or appreciate you

  1. Sounds like the music my brother-in-law used to listen to, I learned to like heavy metal when he lived with us a long time ago. Thanks for sharing the lyrics and the link.

    Interesting how we see ourselves differently from others. I think this is one of the values of blogging, getting a different perspective.

    • I can appreciate all forms of music, but metal will bring me back to some good memories every time. Absolutely! Blogging always gives me a different perspective and allows me to get out of my own head, where everything used to live alone. I appreciate you and all my blogging friends!

  2. the complexity of the music reflects the complexity of the mind, I suspect this is true of you and your brother. My youngest son (who is also a musician) likes him also.

    I think others see in our words what we don’t always see in ourselves, or even intend. Be well!

    • Great comment. Some classical music is just as complicated as this or even more. I always try to shake up people and get them to try new music and see what happens. I love to pull apart the different elements and get lost in music like this. It’s too intense for me to have on all of the time, like for cleaning my house I like lighter music that can fade into the background like Beach Boys and 50’s. I used music in my classroom to set the mood every day and expose my middle schoolers to something other than pop radio.

      Yes, I appreciate what others see in my words, it is helping me to grow.

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