My father decided to break the silence and sent me one of his typical manipulative emails. I’m trying to figure out my reactions at getting a direct message from him after years of no communication of any type. But first, here is his entire email. Let’s dissect it, I would love to hear any thoughts from anyone. I used to get my inbox flooded with these types of messages until I was bale to slowly push him out of my life. These used to tear me apart, making me feel guilty and hate myself. No more. Now I see his feeble attempts as laughable.
No, nothing bad to report. Usually that is the case when it’s been a long gap between communicating times.
I attended a wedding anniversary dinner and one of my nieces inquired about you. I explained you choose a distant and
adversarial relationship and so I rarely hear much at all and really can’t say much with confidence. But, it served to bring you forward
to the front memory lobes so while you are there, I will wish you the belated best for Mother’s Day and hope all is well at your dwelling and such.
Till next time…………”
My first reaction, was to scrunch my eyebrows, cock my head, laugh out loud and say “What the F***”
I mean, really, what the F***? He will never change. Never.
Aww, was it awkward to explain at dinner why I don’t talk to you? Did they eat up your cover story that I have “chosen” to be “distant and adversarial” after realizing the full effects of you molesting and belittling me for so many years? Was that easier than admitting that you chose to steal your precious daughter’s innocence and self worth? Did you wonder if they know the truth? Because they do. They all know. I hope you enjoyed your dinner and that thinking of the pain you have caused me didn’t cause you too much trouble. I do hope I don’t linger too long in your “frontal lobes”, because I don’t belong there.
Really, who talks like this? Are you trying to sound smart here? Or attempting a light-hearted approach? Well, you’d need a heart for that, so way off. Way off.
Are you trying to say that if only I wasn’t so difficult, then we could have a nice relationship? Or are you reaching out to me now because you are bored now that my brothers won’t let you trample on them any more? Have you run out of souls to crush and thought mine might have healed enough for you to crush again? Well too bad. You have lost your power. Gone. Nada. We can all see through you now. Because you are nothing.
And there is no next time. You will not be hearing from me. Ever. Enjoy the rest of your sadistic, psychopathic existence as only someone with no conscience can. You are nothing to me. I am only posting this email to capture my reactions and serve as educational material to anyone who wants to understand a psychopath.
Did I miss anything?
- Psychopaths Lack Empathy as their Brains do not Process the Consequences of Pain, Finds a Study (medindia.net)