It’s ME! I’m the morning person! I don’t have a beach to walk on, sadly, but if I did, I would have the energy to go walk on it. I’m up out of bed, doing stuff other than moping and moaning like a zombie. I answered emails, worked an hour, stretched, listened to birdsong, and gave the dog a belly rub. (Cuz he’s a good dog, yes he is)
In the past, like most of my life, morning has been the most dreaded word ever. If I forced myself out of bed, it would take an hour just to get dressed and moving, and each step would be painfully slow. I would try to read, and the words would look like something I feel I have seen before, but don’t quite remember. I would forget to do things, like brush my teeth. And I relied heavily on oldest daughter to keep us on schedule on school mornings. Last year I would worry that I could not pack a lunch in 20 minutes, because I would be moving that slowly. I actually wish I had that on video, me moving all sloth-like.
I think some of this morning transformation is part of my overall change for the better – my outlook on life, and my progress on my journey of healing and finding my authentic self. As wonderful as that sounds, I’m thinking more of it has to do with this low blood sugar nonsense.
Last night I had some cheddar cheese before bed, instead of chips or M+M’s. I think my sugar has been crashing overnight for years. Surging from my late night binge, then crashing while I sleep. I have no evidence for this, just an idea, but it certainly makes sense. When I have protein instead of sugar before bed, I actually wake up in the morning. No dragging ass to the couch, no fumbling about in a semi-conscious fog. I actually wake up.
Part of me wants to document and experiment with this, but most of me is far too lazy for that. I have never kept a food journal for more than, umm, maybe 2 days. Just too much work and attention needed for that, sorry. But I do have a note on my desk now, that says, “Do you feel crappy? What did you eat?” Just to make sure I associate food with mood more often.
Last week I even gave in and bought some of my favorite cookies, those Keebler Elves really do bake with magic. But my “I’ll just have one cookie after lunch” always turns into, “oops, where did the cookies go?”. And I started having quick breakfasts with kids before school, toaster waffles with honey and cinnamon. Amazing how sugary most breakfast items are. I do get tired of smearing peanut butter (natural only – not the cheap kind full of corn syrup) on everything, but I do feel better. And we make our own honey nut cheerios, by getting adding fresh honey, and chopped nuts to plain whole grain cheerios. I have mine with unsweetened almond milk, so delicious – and no crash!
So now I’m wondering if I should have the kids eat this way too? Is this hypoglycemia thing something only I am prone to, or is this healthy eating for everyone? For years I have given them raisins, carrots, pretzels, graham crackers, etc as a snack. Now the raisins and carrots have some fiber to slow down the sugar, but the pretzels do not. I thought pretzels were healthy, being low fat and not a sugary snack, but now I know it is pure carbohydrate. So I’m confused. Why is eating so difficult?
Anyways, the kids do not seem to buzz or crash after eating pretzels alone, so I am guessing their blood sugar is more stable than mine. Did I break that part of me by over-consuming sugar and carbs for so many years? Maybe pretzels are a healthy snack if you don’t have reactive hypoglycemia. Hmmm.
- Making Better Food Choices a Habit (roots2blossom.wordpress.com)
- Make a plan for lunches (neverpictureperfect.wordpress.com)